Do you ever wonder what your destiny is? What If you KNOW what is and life and all the problems hold you back.Do you keep trying for the thing you know will make you happy or do you just let it go and shrivel up and die? Should I Suck it up and stay where I know I will possibly be miserable for the rest of my life..... cause the reality is.... some things never change?

For example the world is fucked up if people have the chance to fuck you over chances are they will.
If people have the chance to hold you back they will do everything humanly possible to do so includeing some really low life shit like phycological warfare.They will get so deep into your head you can never get out.

The difference between me and a crazy person is that I am aware of whats happening to me and choosing to deal with it.
The fact that Im choosing to deal with this makes me crazy doesnt it?
What a fucked up world we live in where you have to sacrifice the things that  make you happy for the situation that makes you miserable it just compounds the depression you feel.

Why does it always have to be this way where the scales are always tipped too far in one direction? Why cant we have the things that make us happy and a life too?Is there some kind of universal rule where Im not allowed to be happy?That everthing that makes me happy is always eventually taken from me.

The joy is all gone..The fun is over?The only thing I have left to look foward to is dieing?

I refuse to believe that