Been a while since I had drama in my life and I'm starting to feel a little bit more like my self again. Going to school learning fun stuffs and staying away from anything and anybody who isn't good for me. Its hard not to fall back in to bad habits but its getting easier. I had another baby Her name is AIRYANA and CPS is letting me keep her this time. I wont fuck it up. she is the only thing keeping me sane. At night when I give her my boob she smiles at me and tugs at my shirt and plays with my hair. She will come up for air sometimes to "talk to me" she's only three months old but you can tell she's trying. We look into each other eyes and gab it up till she falls asleep. There's no better feeling in the world then a baby who needs you to lay down with her to fall asleep. She feels safe and content in my arms and no one else can comfort her like I can. she's always sitting in mommas lap watching tv.She watches me draw and kicks my drawing gets excited like she wants to try it too..lol She drew her first drawing yesterday with help of course but shes learning how to hold a pencil really good. I think she's guna be left handed like me. Im helping her practice with both hands though just to make sure both sides of her brain are being stimulated. She likes Flash card time she learned to swipe the phone when shes ready for the next color or animal. Shes so smart already. Shes learning to stand before she can crawl.. She hates tummy time. Loves to play airplane.
She is such a good baby never crys.. I am so lucky.
Have to get to class now.